My ninth grade year is almost over. Seriously, one more day, and it’s a half day! It’s flown by SO fast, I can’t believe it’s over.  I’ve met a lot of new people, and made many more close friends than last year.  Some I’ve grown closer to than ever before, and I’m so thankful.  So while I’m sitting here, typing this, while stressing over what I got on my English final today. I’m so proud of myself, how I’ve grown over this past year and the new things I’ve learned.  Not going to bore you anymore about how I’ve matured….

wish me luck on my exam tomorrow ( in gym… I know right, GYM!), I’m going to need it :/

Everything keeps happening so quickly! i am on spring break right now, and, of course, i don’t want it to end so quickly, but there’s really nothing i can do about it, is there? when i look back it seems i was just starting 8th grade yesturday, and now im already at the end of my freshman year. i’m scared this is what it’s going to be like when i have kids…you know how your parents always say “they’re growing up so fast.”? i guess i didn’t realize the truth in that sentence.

this is when i want to have that remote from the movie “click” :) wouldn’t that be awesome? of course at the end, its supposed to be this whole lesson about how you should live in the moment…oh well.

Got a ten page paper due next Thursday! how fun, huh? i can’t seem to concentrate though! like i ever can… it’s just so difficult. i’m so stressed about finishing it, but i also can’t sit down and do it. wish me luckkkkk. :/

IM SO FRIGGIN STRESSED OUT!!! i always feel like im not going to get something done, and the horrible thing is, i’m a total prograstinator (however the heck you spell that)….i wait till the last minute. i have a WW2 essay due monday, i have half of the first paragraph done, and i know i have all weekend, but i still feel like i don’t have enough time. ugh. and then i have a 10 page paper and 10 minute presentation on Bonnie and Clyde for the same class due April 12. and i REALLY haven’t started on that one. say hello to a stressed out spring break. ugh. again.

i’m craving something. but i REALLY don’t know what.  i keep opening the fridge and looking in, closing it, doing the same thing to the pantry, repeat, repeat. ect.  i even put chocolate syrup on a potato chip (and if you’re wondering, it was ok actually)… well i guess i will keep on in my quest to find the perfect snack….

so, as i’ve mentioned before, my sister (age 24) has recently moved home…ya.  bit old don’t you think? well she’s tried all these different roomates, but none really worked out.  She has a good job (and she gets paid a good bit of money too)…just decided to move home. hey! doesn’t bother me really, as long as i get access to her closet (i can wear her shirts :) ) and her straightner. her straightner is pretty awsome :)

only downside? im always caring about how i look, or what i say, or watch on TV in the living room.  i didn’t really care with my parents, they’re my parents, you know? but with Stacey, its different i guess… i care what she thinks. i think my sister is VERY PRETTY, and yesss i am a bit jealous.  i just want to impress her, but i don’t really know why. i don’t think she really judges me, harshly or anything, but its about what she THINKS. i want to be the kinda little sister that she wants to show off…. and take me places…perferably places where i will get stuff :) did i mention she makes a good amout of money? haha ka-ching!

Three day weekend, and somehow i have gotten nothing done. at the begining of this weedend i thought i would get a whole butt-load of stuff done, but now it Monday and my room’s a mess and i only have an outline for the essay that’s due next week. Ugh. These types of weekends make me realize how lazy i actually am. So now i’m just sitting here, writing this, eating cheddar jack cheez-its, and watching the Pretty Little Liars marathon on ABC family…staring out at my dirty room with my essay outline next to me. i am definitely in a pickle…

So, first of all HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! though as a fellow single-ton i prefer to call it “singles awareness day”…that just seems like the most appropriate name for it (for me). I mean, think about it…yes all of you lucky ducks who have your honey-boo’s get the flowers, balloons, chocolates, ect. But (from my prospective) who stands out more? the ones of us that don’t get anything. yep. now i keep putting in parenthesis that this is what I think, im sure there are other opinions…but this is my blog! i get to say what i think! haha… now there are some of the single ones who like it that way and don’t feel that their missing anything and even i have told this to my sister and friends, but i have to admit that, yes, it would be nice to have a valentine and all that lovey dovey stuff…

i didn’t even really realize that i wanted this until i caught myself holding my breath while opening my locker…crazy huh? ya. i mean, who would get my locker combo and put something romantic in there??…you guessed it…A FREAK! and i don’t want a freak on my hands, not at all! but in reference to all the romantic movies and books, somehow all the cute guys get the flowers in the locker! baffles me.

well enough of this “forever alone” stuff, time to let you know that my whole day wasn’t crap. i actually had a lot of fun in my english class when we got to cut into magazines and make cute little valentines for anyone, and i got 3 from some of my really good friends and i must admit (for me) it was probably more fun than i would have had with any “valentine”.

So, ya’ll know how people always talk about expressing theirselves through their outfits and style? well i’ve always wanted to do that…express myself through wardrobe, but of course i can’t…we’re not a poor family, not at all or what so ever! i usually get what i want, but i’ve been raised to a point where i don’t ask for a lot…ok, i do ask for stuff that i REALLY want, but if my parents can’t afford it at the time, i usually don’t push the issue. Do i sound like i think to highly of myself??…well anyway..i’m not saying that i am a saint and always understand that my parents just can’t afford it, sometimes i’m so friggin’ mad that we arn’t RICH and can’t afford everything and anytime. i do get mad…but i’m to a certain point where i understand and get over it.

well, i got kinda off topic, back to expressing yourself through clothing…i’ve really always wanted my whole closet to express myself. (yes like in books or on tv :) ) but sometimes we just can’t afford the stuff i love, enough for it to fill my WHOLE closet…i have a couple items that really express who i am, but mostly, it’s just a bunch of t-shirts or cute little shirt….i don’t even really know how to say what my style is, but i can tell that the stuff i LOVE i really alike. i guess one little way to say it would be kinda vintage/boho? i don’t know! haha…i guess i’ll just keep secretly praying that one of those closet makeover people will show up at my door and offer me a million dollar shopping spree!!!….ya i know…long shot….

but a girl has gotta have dreams right?

When i get obsessed with something, i get OBSESSED. and i’m not exagerating, it’s all i can talk about for that week or month. It annoys my friends to no end! When i was younger this would (for obvious reasons) be a toy. i would be hooked on 1 toy for a week or so, then move onto another one. And now that i’m a bit older these obsessions seem to be with TV. i’m seriously a tv-aholic…if that makes sence?

i won’t tell yall what my current obsession is right now becuase you will all think i’m a third grader and…..oh whatever!! i am not ashamed of my obsessions! :) current obsession: House of Anubis. Yes, yes i know, nick show…horrible acting (by mostly the main character) but i really love the plot…and this ships in it. OBSESSED! others i’ve had in the past: Criminal minds, Pretty little liars, and various others…i still watch these shows of course, addictions are hard to kick, but i don’t talk about them as much as i used to… now you all probably think i’m a big fatty that just sits around and watched TV all day….NOT TRUE.

sometimes i do push ups while i watch :) i can do 2 things at once ;)